Well, Yes I know its been awhile since last I posted or blogged or just simply left a note here and there but I've a busy gal!! Yep me...busy...New endeavors getting underway....Well, I have decided to turn this into a new mind frame...Yep the blog has been shifted not only into a New Me blog, but a very new and improved or getting there blog...Okay so it is kind of confusing but you will catch on soon enough....



I have started a new business...Yes, me...So would anyone like to hear more about it. I am actually as we speak losing weight and getting paid for it. Well, there is also another very interesting part of it, I want anyone who reads this to learn how to do it as well. It is filled with yummy things and great advances. The best part, everyone is doing it...Well, okay so a lot of people are doing it...I just need to get the word out around here for people to do it from me!!!! Come on people, don't you want to feel healthy and revived? Then check me out at my Facebook page...http://facebook.com/careermommawithvi or http://kellykufke.bodybyvi.com. Its the 90 day challenge...come on what better way to ring in the new year than a new body, a new mind set and some cash in your pocket...Doesn't that all sound awesome...It did for me and when I sat down and really looked into this, it hit me hard and it felt real to me. Something I could talk about and do at the same time and LOVE doing at the same time....Come on now, what about ya'll.....

Other than that...I am doing great. Getting ready for my new class, math110. Rather nervous but confident I am going to get through the material not sure how well but I have a new attitude and a new outlook on life and a whole new energy on what is important and what...ya know what really isn't all that important anymore...It is crazy how one thing can make you sit down and evaluate the things you have in your life and the things going on in your life.

Later taterz,
Me.....

Okay so last week I went in for xray review and ask my surgeon about something I read on my previous xrays I read back in June. Now when he did my surgery he fused my L4-5, so I asked him about my L5-S1 and he told me it must have been just a typo...hmmm...So from asking my pain group who suggested this certain blood test, I asked him about it and he said sure we can do it.

WELL.....UPDATE.....BLOOD TEST......

TEST RESULTS..."POSTITIVE"

When I went in to my pain doctor for my injections I decided I would ask her to look in the computer on a whim...Never in my wildest dreams would I ever think the test results would come back positive...but then again after doing research and knowing what I know about the signs of the disease and doing the research of what I already have wrong with my back, I had a feeling..(you know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when something just doesnt feel right, Ya...that feeling!!!) BINGO...

So you ask positive for what?!?...Anklosing Spondylitis...Yep..its a mouthfull..For short they call it. AS... So you ask how did I know the test was going to come back positive..Well, one of the symptoms is when the spine fuses itself to the pelvis area..well...L5-S1....Saw it on the xrays for my own eyes...Surgeon varified for me and everything...Yep sure did..

So, whats the next step...Well...funny thing, with exception for what Ive read..not sure...The rheumatologist hasnt said too much except she has done xrays and now I go in for yep...another MRI...boy, I sure am getting sick of these fricken(for lack of nicer words) tests..I feel like a lab rat...but from what I understand...A bunch of different medications.

So, this is what Ive summarized throughout all of this...I havent figured out why the big guy up above keeps giving me all of these rough things to go thru but he must think Im fricken..yep for lack of nicer words...wonder woman...

I was watching a movie not too long ago..actually it was a few days before I had the blood test and it was called 50/50...It was about a guy who was having really bad back pain and he waited and waited to go for it. So finally he went in to get his back looked at and they ran tests, did xrays and then they did an mri...and wouldnt ya know it, it was a tumor...a painful tumor...Cancer they determined. He went thru chemotherapy and all that...He dealt with the emotional and physical and all that fun stuff and while I watched the movie I sat there and kept thinking...."Wow, I can totally understand what this guy is going thru...well, not the part of dying, but the pain and the emotional and physical part. I kept thinking that there is something more wrong with my back and the pain I feel isnt just from my surgery like the surgeon keeps telling me, theres something more...I shouldnt be having pain like this, this long after, I dont care what he says...and BOOM....SURE ENOUGH...I take the blood test and WHAM..something more is sure enough wrong with my back...

of course its not a tumor like the movie...but is something more than just the surgery like my surgeon keeps telling me....

So my point to this is Im going to keep pushing like I have to and keep asking people for suggestions cause If I hadnt asked anyone about this, no one would have told me about the blood test...So thank you so much

Later taterz,

Me!!!

So, I know I have rather been busy and deserted my blogging duties once agian but I have a plan...Yes me...I have a plan...lol...My first things in the morning after J goes to school and before D wakes up is get on here and blog my thoughts....Sounds good...Thats if I can stick to it...

So I was googleing (if that how you spell it)...lol..but anyways..I did this one and my other blog and I found that this blog and my other one is ranked top single mother blogs....wooohooo...Yay for me...Im rather stoked...but anyways...I hope people are reading and enjoying my ramblings but I wished if people are reading them, they might comment here and there just to let me know what they think....If they wish..

But, My plan is to do my own thing first thing in the morning from now on...you know after J leaves for school, shower, hair, makeup...Girlie stuff....To make myself feel good again...That way Im ready for whatever comes my way or if anyone stops by I dont look like an udder mess...lol...

But, Ive also decided to blog first thing in the morning, get my homework done, and then whatever errand need to get done can get done later in the day...lol..and then post later in the evening and this way its a recap of the day..So ya'll can here my for lack of a better word....any bitching of people that irritate me during the day...I was told by my doctor yesterday that "Normal people dont get irritated on a regular basis"??? Really??? Are you fricken kidding me???? So people that work, have kids, go to school or just have regular lifes and have bills dont get irritated??? Sounds fishy to me....I told him hes fricken out of his mind...lol...I guess I must really be nuts for thinking that...lol...

So Im off to do a bunch of errands, such as take the car to the vw dealership and get a rental car...and then I get to see my surgeon for xrays and to find out if my upper back and neck are screwed up and to find out why my L5-S1 vertebrae fused itself!! Have to get blood work done and also to find out about my carpal tunnel surgery and when or if Im gonna have that done...Yay me...I swear it never ends with me...

Well, until later
Later taterz,
Me.....

So, It seems like my days go every other day and I have a productive day. I dont know anymore but on the plus side I do feel good today but my back is a wreck and has been for the last week or so. It feels like I am carrying a sack of flour.

Went to a great meeting yesterday and met some great people. People that understand what I am going thru. Even tho my family understands, its still hard to really to completely understand what I go thru on a daily basis. So it was great to meet other people who do.

I made dinner the other night and it was AWESOME.....Messy to make but it was worth it in the end.

Today I accomplished the rest of my homework for the week...wooohooo!!!! So Im gonna get a head start on next week DQ's...Im totally proud of myself..

I reorganized my room and put a table in there so I can do my homework or paperwork or just writing in there when I need too!!! Away from people when I cant sleep...

Cleaned the kids room...man o man was it a mess...clothes, junk, garbage...and even food I found..What a mess!!!! I guess I have to remember when I was a kid...Minus the food part...I was cluttered when I was a kid...lolol...yep thats the word...

Then last night when i got home from my meeting...for starters the microwave went out...thought it was a fuse...so today went down to check it out...Nope not a fuse...2 freaken outlets...actually 4 outlets Dont work...so I have a cord across so I can use my microwave...

Its definately time to move...I need to move...I want to move....Lord help me and find me a nicer place....I can afford one...lolol

Well, dinner time...
Later taterz,
Me....

I feel great....Its been awhile!!!!

I feel great....I wish everyday could be like today...I am not sure what has gotten into me today but since 8 am this morning I have been going strong and I have accomplished so much today and it feels great. I am so proud of myself that I even made for the first time, Chicken and dumplings and it was absolutely amazing....YAY!!!! lol...I know tooting my own horn...hehe...

Well, lets see what have I done today....

• Took the chicken out of the slow cooker and put it off to the side.
• Feed and had daelynn out and about at 8 am.
• Did the dishes and straightened up the kitchen.
• Jumped on and checked my school stuff.
• Made breakfast and ate (obviously).
• Made daelynn her usual oatmeal at 10:30 am.
• Jumped in the shower at 11 am.
• Got ready for my ACE meeting.
• Took the car into VW in Sheboygan.
• Came home and finished making my Chicken and Dumplings.
• Obviously Ate dinner...lol...
• Did my Replys for school and my 2nd DQ post that was due Friday.
• Now Im blogging to anyone reading...lol..

This is the old me, this one I am so needing to be again but only better. I am changing myself for many reasons because I have spent way too long feeling down and today I felt great...Made tons of calls I needed too and there are more things continueing to change, its a work in progress...

My little bug drank from a straw for the first time today at the dealership, it was so cute...she thought she was big shit....it was too cute...got pics and all...
Well, tommorro is another day filled with errands and meeting which I am so excited about and I will be sure to jump on and let everyone know how it all went...

Later taterz,
Me....

Wooohoo....Today was awesome....Started my new endevour today...Mommy have a new part time job. Well, if you want to call it a part time job. I started Secret Shopping. It doesnt pay alot but it atleast gets me out of the house and I feel like someone other than just MOM...lol. For those of you that can understand that. I have a few other ones going at the same time but this certain one gets me out of the house and I feel important. LOL... Now comes the fun part the real work of the job.

I also have to sit down and read 2 chapters from my sociology class, that by the way Im so stoked about. I know sounds weird but Im so excited to be in this class. Probably because I want to go to school to be a social worker... When I get to transfer to the campus based school, jan..hint hint..I will be so happy. Can ya tell, can ya tell. I will be both MOM and Me again.

Hmmm...Im in such an awesome mood right now, wonder what my horoscope says??? Dont know if I should jinx myself right now and read it. lol.

Well, Im also quite frankly getting irritated at my dear post man. Im not sure if he/she realizes I live where I live because I am not getting my mail. The neighbor next door gets my mail and then he is nice enough to bring it down to me. How sweet is that.


So Im thinking that I am gonna post a note on my mailbox something like this:


Dear Mr. POSTMAN:

YES I LIVE HERE AND I WOULD LOVE TO GET MY MAIL, PLEASE CAN I HAVE IT AND NOT THE NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR ANYMORE????
MUCH APPRECIATION......

So, does that sound good???

Well, off to a head start on my studies...
Me...

Well, today I got my first look at my new class...everyday Sociology. Yay!!!. I know it sounds strange that someone would be excited about it but I am compared to what I was going to have to take. They had me taking intro to algebra but it was harder than algebra every was. I was getting daily panic attacks and physically ill just thinking about it. I went over the cd's they sent me and the textbook, I even had a tutor from the school for a half hour and still it was like french to me. So I made a few calls and they were able to switch me and it didnt cost me an arm and a leg, as they say.

Some or most of you dont know but I suffer from severe anxiety attacks as it is, so this class didnt help me any. I actually suffer from bi-polar disease and severe depression to be totally honest and by setting up these blogs and trying to change things slowly has been helping me out so much.

This week I have 2 support groups that I am going to attend for the first time, tho it is going to be a little weird, I promised my family I would start attending them because it will help me in the long run. One of them if for chronic pain, because I have a severe back problem and the other one is called "NAMI". So I am totally excited to see what they are like and see how it impacts me to do my own thing for once.

Im sorry to make this short but it is 1 in the morning but Ill be back on tommorro and Ill chat with anyone who reads this more in my later blogs...

Later taters,
Me